I cant handle itt !!!!!!!!!!

As per normal, i would meet up with Saloma at the void deck. Saloma was really late. I hate waiting for people when they know they are late. I mean, if you dont want to see me just say so. Dont keep me waiting sooooo long! Furthermore, the moment she met me, she asked me if i have taken my medicine or not. I immediately told her that i dont care about anything. About taking medicine to cure and all. Medicine doesnt cure us. It doesnt make us feel anything!! Basically, it only hides our illness!! It wont go away!!! All i need is LOVE & CARE !! Doesnt anybody understand that? Saloma even said that i was controlling her. CONTROLING?! I wasnt controling her !!! I am helping, not controling her! I have always told her that as long as i have her, i dont need anything else. I have already ENJOYED my life. I mean, who doesnt want to enjoy life? EVERYONE wants to. Its just that everything was moving very, very fast. I CANT KEEP UP! Saloma wants to be cured and her life just started. I cant keep up. Why try if you cant? Saloma and i was talking about some things. She told me i have to be strong. But i guess i cant. And soon later, i got hyperventilated. I started hitting Saloma, pulling her hair. She cried but i ignored. I JUST CANT HANDLE IT ALL !!!!!!!